My life, Our story !

All I Ever Wanted

I dream I was alone
Walking down this path
No one would listen,
No one else care
After I woke up, I woke up with this fear
What am I living, without you
So if you ask me
I just want you to know that
I hope that my actions, had said it all
All that, I have wanted, to say to you
Don’t resent me , when the feelings come by
I hope that my dreams will come true,
With you by my side,

I know I am not prefect
I can’t be, who you wanted
But I am just who I am.
I am only strong on the surface,
but Not all the way through
So, Don’t resent me, when the feelings come.

So if you ask me,
I just want you to know that ,
When my feelings come by ,
I can’t do anything, to stop it,
Neither can you.
So , don’t resent me ,
give me a chance to
know you
Give me a reason,
To live on

I dreamt that,
some day,
We will walk down the path,
till the day that
we go grow old

When the feelings come,
Forget the wrong I have done
Just give me a chance,
To change for you
Don’t leave me all alone
Don’t leave me all alone

Saturday, August 25, 2007

AS time goes by, this blog has become a victim of it? Or perhaps you could put the blame on the owner?

Anyway, it might just be a good thing that no one is reading this blog anymore. This might just be the perfect platform since I do not wish to tell anyone about this story.

I remembered one of my friends commented, being in a relationship, am not exactly being in love. Then, I mock about his sentence. Calling him superficial from being with someone because of her looks. But now till recently, I realise how true that statement was.

There was this boy who once dated girls who he thinks are pretty to him. Very often, he feels proud when his friends commented how pretty his girl is. He grim with delight, although at times it was a burden to him. Being a rather socialable person, he has alot of friends. Something which he isn't lacking of. His rather good with sports, have a nice family, live in a comfortable house, has a pretty girlfriend and not to bad with his studies. He leads a rather meaningful and happy life. At lease that was what he thinks.

I almost forgot to mention his relationship with the lady. Among the few he dated, this lady -------- lasted the longest. The boy thought he really loves her but at certain times, he just couldn't understand what she was thinking. In fact, he didn't exactly treat her well. Time was happy with her. They both enjoyed. But then again, they had more than 1 unhappy occasion. Very often, this boy thought the girl was overreacting at almost everything. Such as him going out with his friend seems pretty normal to him. And yet that girl would make a fuss over it. And when he feels like sitting at home on a Saturday evening to enjoy his soccer, that girl would complain that he doesn't spent time with her. Right till they broke up, he didn't think that he was entirely wrong. But that lady was a very nice person. When they were together, she begun to take up hobbies of the boy so that they had more things to do together. And even right after till they broke, despite the guy being such a horrible person, she remained his good friend. In retrospect, this boy realise he should have treated her better. But he was happier being friends with her. Was it due to way they got together? THe boy friend’s would have understood this point? What was this boy thinking? Gods know!

Then this boy met this girl month after they broke up. This particular girl wasn't the prettiest or the tallest but he just fell for her. At the start, he treated her merely as another friend. Then, there were a fair share of guys trying to date her which he was nonchant about. But thereafter, the late night chats they had, the every weekend meeting they had, he just felt differently. All along, he wanted to enter Axx or Cxx where his friends are. But after he heard that this girl might just stay at xxx, he decided to just stay there. But sadly, this girl didn't remain there. Irony? Or was it fated? However, even though they are at different schools, they somehow just grew closer. At lease that was what the boy thought. After he met her, he finally understood how did -------- felt at that time. Sometimes when sms goes unanswered, he got abit unsettled. WAs heaven teaching him a lesson? I suppose so.

Once when they went out, he saw his friends. Then this particular guy friend of him smsed him. “She’s isn't that bad, but ----- is odv prettier. LOL." This provoked his chain of thoughts. He used to grumble when he waited for------ who is abit late. But once, he actually waited half an hour for this girl. He changed a fair bit after know this girl. There goes the day where he spent all his time playing, clubbing and partying. But somehow, it just didn't work out between then. Then, why is he still waiting for her? (At this point of time, you are supposed to think of something. To hint you in greater details, LOVE! )

As you can see, the boy indeed likes this girl. In fact, the feeling he had for her was never like before. But, how the girl did feels towards him, remain a question. He haven't ask, not that he didn't dare but he didn't want to. He didn't want to spoil their friendship so far. The boy hasn’t faced rejection, only just yet. Would he and this girl get together? Only time will tell. So will anyone ever read till here, ( if u can see this ) then yes i suppose. Red was suppose to camourflage !

I'mma Touch the Sky!
7:29 AM

Saturday, August 04, 2007

It seems like 10000000000000000 since i last blog !

Hearing from what other friends in other jc are doing, my life in school seems saddly pathetic. Anyway i am stuck there, so i shall stop complaining.

Promos are coming ! based on my mid year, i would have retain. HAHA, but somehow i ain't feeling scared. I know i feared caused i didn't study, thus i shall try to start studying soon.

Injury prone year this year. Quite saddening. FLop in my nationals track. Didn't perform to anywhere near what i should be doing/can do. Sorry to let down you all, especially since this is your last year in this competition. It's my fault. Sorry, there goes your medal chance. Anyway, i am quite happy that i at lease manage to won one major award. This year isn't that disappointing after all. My next aim, track nationals-400m, 200m.

It might be rather hysterical to ask such question know, but who cares, i ain't exactly in a clear mind now.

What is the best toy on earth ?
Its human, as emotions just keep playing with us.

That sums up everything. Thankfully , i got a great bunch of friends. Thanks.

I'mma Touch the Sky!
8:28 AM

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